2019-11-25


It's undoubtedly quite suffering entering the depression state. Most probably due to medication, all sorts of mentally and physically pains are gone. However, I have to bear the fatigue feelings during the day time.


Just an ordinary middle age guy in Malaysia. Not from a rich family and I still have to work and support my parents. Actually I can easily get medical leave from a psychiatrist but I don't want to do so. Besides getting a medical leave while consulting my psychiatrist once a year, I seldom get medical leave from the psychiatrist. Perhaps, my colleagues who do not have mental health problems may apply more medical leave than I.


For me, exercise has become part of my life. Running, cycling and swimming are really fun. Some more, these sports can be done alone. Socialising is okay during normal state but it'll be tough during depression state. If I push myself to social with people during this time, it may cause unnecessary stress inside. I prefer not to talk to anyone during this moment. Thus, I may still enjoy all these activities without talking to people.


Another obvious thing is, I really crave for chocolates. Actually I'm on diet and hope to burn a few kilograms more. By having chocolates, it'll give me some courage to go on. I'll take a bit during this moment but truly under control. Depression state will be ceased soon, I believe.