2021-01-17

Due to a strange accident on the last day of 2020, my femur was fractured. A major operation had been done on 4th January 2021.

The pain feeling was massive and truly hard to bear. I had to transferred from a general hospital to a private hospital because lack of surgeons and not enough operation room during such a pandemic. Experienced the swab test and it was really uncomfortable. I could only transfer to the private hospital after my result was negative. 

For the first two nights, the pain feeling almost paralysed me. Fortunately by the end of the second day, I knew how to manage the pain and refused taking pain killers. However, the pain persisted, just that I already got used to it. An anesthetist explained to me the quite complicated anesthesia procedure because of my bipolar disorder. For my bipolar friends, please remember to inform your doctor that you have bipolar disorder. The anesthetist never gave me a full body anesthesia because I might have problems to wake up again. 

It's really a long recovery process. My femur can be totally healed in 6 till 8 weeks but I need longer time to involve in marathon, duathlon and triathlon again. According to another doctor, I might need at least 4 months to have a complete recovery. I have to make sure that I'm always have a calm and stable mood. Although I wish to walk smoothly as soon as possible but I give time to myself for recovery.

Everything will be fine. The pandemic shall cease and I would surely walk normally soon. Keep taking my medication faithfully. So do all my bipolar friends who read this blog. 

 2021-01-13

在2020年的最后一天，发生了挺离奇的意外。由于快步行走，不小心踢到在停车位伫立的铁柱子。隐约听到低沉的钟声，同时被反弹的震撼弄得有些晕眩 ，过后坐大腿像被电击，左脚顿时失去站稳的能力，身体立即不受控制向前倒下。

我已跌倒无数次，身体在潜意识里也懂得怎么跌，才会让身体承受最低的伤害。向前倒下，身体却会及时把重心摆向右大腿，让右大腿到膝盖旁上方的部位承受倒下的撞击。这部分撞伤后，让背后可以缓缓躺在地上。就是说，这件意外发生后，我是平躺在地上，而面向夜空。刚开始，会以为只是扭伤了筋，却不知道左腿大骨已经断开。事发后不久，有两名印度同胞把我扶起来坐在地上，但那剧烈的疼痛让我迅速躺下。我打电话跟妈妈求救，后来被家人送入医院。

起初是送进了政府医院，因为有残障卡，住院与动手术都全免。可惜因为疫情严重，医院没有医生可以及时帮我动手术，才转入专科医院。安排到我在一月四日动手术，而这已经是最快了。在政府医院照X光，已痛得死去活来。后来他们说X光照得不清楚，必须照多一次，再次令我痛彻心扉。在病床上，只要稍微姿势不对，即会承受撕裂剧痛。这样承受如此般剧痛两天后，剩下的几天都已不须服用止痛药，因已经懂得怎么避免疼痛，还有也习惯那长时间的疼痛。

一月四日（星期一）进行手术。因长期服用锂，不能像其他人那样全身麻醉，麻醉师会担心我一旦被麻醉了会很难醒来。麻醉师为我进行了很复杂的局部麻醉，左脚24个小时，右脚6个小时，从背后脊椎那里注射麻醉以让下半身麻醉6个小时，至于上半身只是在手术时沉睡而手术后可以很快醒过来。麻醉师如此详细说明，过后我也确实如他所说的这样全部惊人般实现。加上是左大腿骨，开刀前还要摆个很高难度的姿势。侧睡在手术台上，整个左脚朝上，双手交叉与胸前，背后朝向一方，胸前朝向另一方，并非如一般人那样平躺。

手术顺利进行了，也在医院静养几天。手术后第二天即做了物理治疗，还学习怎么使用拐杖。根据物理治疗师的说法，要每日三次做某些物理治疗的动作，好让自己能尽快康复。一月八日出院了，目前在家里静养。