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Friday, September 17, 2021

 2021-09-17

其实我自己并不知道,何时会陷入混乱之中。虽然一直按时服药,但依然没有完全的信心,在遇到突然而来的紧急大事件,是否还可以保存着理智。若可以,如果幸运的话,有个伴侣在身旁,你我好好彼此相伴扶持。

在写着这部落格时,我仍然是单身,并没有所谓的另一半,也没有女朋友。随着年纪逐渐变老,父母亲都很焦虑,十分担心在他们离开后,谁会在我需要的时候给予照顾。是的,这确实是一个很重要的课题。当然在面对这问题之前,必需能够如一般人那样生活。同样的,我没有十全的把握,向世界宣布已经跟一般人无异。

所谓居安思危,在日子过得安稳时要想想未来可能会出现的问题。在这里,我发现精神病患者必需有几个能给予即时协助的人士。这些人有相关的知识和能力,可以立即给予我们很大的帮助。由于众多的精神病患者并非富裕,或来自富有的家庭,政府确实需要设立这所谓的“救命人员”提供援助。

宗教集团在这方面,当然可以提供帮助。他们可以在信徒里头,教导信徒们要包容和协助精神病患者,切勿排挤或鄙视我们。我是一名基督教徒,很遗憾会在此抱怨,教会并无法提供我需要的帮助。无论怎么样,我会学习原谅和包容。感觉上,自己像是一个边缘人,在精神病患群体里最接近正常的那一位;在一般人当中却又属于较为异常的那一个。结果,两边都不是。

没有关系,我内心衷心渴望精神病患者都能好好生活。更重要的是,我们大家都能够成功融入这个世界里。

Wednesday, September 15, 2021

2021-09-15

"Everything will get better and better." I keep telling myself this sentence again and again. If you watch YouTube videos about those famous people who used to prophecy, nearly all of them tell us it's getting worse. 

This is a strange behaviour of human beings. People tend to talk bad things about other people. People are more attracted to bad news. It's rare for people who love talking good things about other people. And it's rare people keep on reading good news. Hence, it's much easier for us to criticise rather than to praise. 

In fact, I used to criticise as well. Used to think that I was much better than most of the people. The whole scenario changed once I have had been labelled as 'bipolar disorder'. This seemed like a dead sentence for me. By having such a label, I was almost the worst among everyone. No more dignity, no more self esteem. Anyhow, should I remain like this for the rest of my life?

A group of people would think that everything has been fixed, and there's nothing much we could do. This kind of predestination thought printed deeply in all these people. In contrast, I believe in free will, I believe in we have the ability to change. Although I used to think that no one would ever love me due to this mental illness. And now, I would want to change this thought to be, I believe someone would still love me with this mental illness. 

It's true that such a mental illness is a great obstacle. And it's also true that we could overcome the obstacle. As long as we keep a good health, we would have more time to deal with it. Yes, I'm getting older and older, but at the same time, I'm getting wiser and wiser.