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Friday, October 16, 2020

 2020-10-16

Before this, I used to think that working from home was great. Of course people might say, working from home is good because no need to trap in a terrible traffic jam anymore, and you can have more freedom without those superiors monitoring you on spot. However, time seems moving much slower. 

No more interact with people physically at work, everything becomes so distant and isolated. I don't like this feeling. Thus, waiting patiently for the moment to work on site again. The Coronavirus pandemic suddenly becomes much worse than before. The fact is, more and more people are suffering. More job losses, and lots of students cannot attend schools and colleges. When will it end?

Although I'm still holding a job and no need to attend college, but under such a gloomy atmosphere makes me feels depressed. I love seeing people living happily and children giggling while playing with their parents. Anyway, during this moment, people are suffering and children are kept inside homes. When will it end?

In such a situation, I could only divert my attention to the nature and animals (birds, fish, insects...). Birds still chirp as normal, fish still swim gently in a pond, and insects still live as usual. Yes, no matter what happens, we still go on as usual. Let me have the peaceful mind as those birds, fish and insects. We all can make it through!   

Thursday, October 15, 2020

 2020-10-15

相信2020年最恼人的事件,就是全球都在承受折磨的冠病。这病毒很狡猾,叫人无法掉以轻心,也漫长的让人逐渐失去了耐心。

自从三月底到如今,我都必需居家工作。感觉上,时间好像走得慢一些。少了塞车的时光,多出来的时间可以拿来寂寞。疫情突然严重起来,所谓的标准作业程序(SOP ),又变得更加严格。还要等多久,生活才可以恢复原状呢?

与人相处本来都不是件容易的事,对于拥有精神疾病的我,肯定会比一般人辛苦。当低潮突然侵袭,当浓烈情绪在内心翻腾,当身体对痛苦的感觉大大加强,当光芒变得莫名刺眼,当声音幻化成虫子咬着灵魂,要如何让一切仍然如常进行呢?

跟爸爸的思想对立,而他又喜欢不断想说服我倒向他那一方。要怎么在时候保持冷静,不要再次与爸爸发生不必要的口角呢?妈妈总希望我找到另一半,我又怎么在此时安静,不说任何令她伤心的话呢?好难!是的,真的好难!

这段期间,我依然喜欢运动。早上到体育馆附近跑步,然后到公园散散步。运动对于精神病患者很重要,它确实可以有效地缓和内在的情绪。紧接着就是多休息,因为当身体对一切都那么敏感的时候,一定要多多休息。如果可以的话,尽量少说话,避免不经意说出伤人的话。