2020-08-28

"How are you recently?" A friend used to ask me such a question again and again. Sigh... Why can't he asks me something else? Something which is much easier to answer. For example, "Have you exercised this morning?", "Did you sleep well last night?", "Still manage to keep your daily routine accordingly?" and etc.

For my point of view, these three aspects are important for bipolar disorder people rather than keep asking us how we are. A good sleep, exercise regularly, and able to keep all our daily routine under control. It's sickening hard for me to judge my own sanity. Am I okay now? Frankly speaking, I don't know. Thus, please do not ask me this question again. 

Besides that, I might have ADHD (Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder) and being hypersensitive all the time. In brief, hyperactive and hypersensitive altogether. This is the reason why I need to exercise almost every day. And then, it's painful for me to be around those people who like to complain and full of grudges, someone who is a perfect negative one. I know people cannot be positive forever but I really notice some people who 'love' to be amazingly negative. I used to pull these people out of their negativity but they return to their initial state repeatedly. Why? I also don't know. 

After so many times, it should be wise for me to stay away for all these negative people. In fact, no one can really help them if they themselves already quit in helping themselves. I've never wanted to give up for all these friends but if I never do so, then I'd be surely fall into the same negative state as them.