2020-01-22


It's really hard to write blog on daily basis but it's quite easy to manage by writing blog monthly. So, I'll try to write something here every single month.


Nothing much changes recently. Life becomes quite stable under medication for more than 2 years. Hence, boredom becomes a new challenge so far. Nevertheless, by having a good routine of exercise, I would still fall sick when I was having a long depression stage. It's should be a fact that our immune system is highly related with our moods.


Due to I would become sleepy at night after taking medication, I'd go to bed early at night and wake up early in the morning. If I have to involve in a night sport for example night cycling event, then I would take my medication when I reached home after the event. Of course we should take medication on the same time every day but it's better for me to take it after a sport event to avoid unnecessary accidents.


Dignity is another serious topic. While holding a disability card, how to I sustain my dignity? How could I bear the strange looks by the people when they see I have a disability card? To counteract with it, self acceptance plays a major role. For the majority, it's a shame for them to hold such a card. Even ladies stay away from me when they know I have such a mental illness. It's okay, I don't need people's recognition to survive.


In fact, we are stronger than ordinary people. It's not our choice to have such an illness but we choose to accept it, and live in the world like anybody else. The medication helps us to remain sanity but it's not an ultimate cure. Instead, we need to be strong and brave to face the monster inside and survive in this cruel world.


Yes, we are much stronger! If someone looks down on us, it's a shame for themselves but definitely not us. So, lift up our head and go on.