2018-12-10


The fact is, we may have a normal life as well as a productive life as others. When I read those blogs from other bipolar bloggers, this is the main message they would like to convey. Yes, this is true but not 100%.


Under medication, we may have a permanent job as others. If we never tell anyone, no one will notice that we are different. However, we cannot be the same as others. The way we think is different, the way we see the world is different, the way we response is also different. If other people get closed to us and try to understand us, they will definitely notice that we are quite special or unique.


Maybe, this is the root cause for my loneliness. I never want to be special, I truly wish I can be like the rest. Due to my uniqueness, most of the people don't want to get closed with me. It's normal that people like to be with someone who is alike with them. If this is true, actually bipolar people should be best friends together. Unfortunately, we are highly sensitive and thus we will be influenced by another bipolar people. Unless both of us are having medication obediently and we know how to manage our moods maturely.


It's OK to be special. It's also OK to be lonely. The main thing is, we need to know how to take care ourselves.

2018-12-10


发现在网络的世界里，有很多病患写的文章比我好太多，以致会觉得我的存在可有可无。是的，当一切平稳后，好像需要把自己重新定义。以前有很多目标，会一直担心时间不够。可是目前并没有任何计划，似乎可以处理好手头上的事物经已足够。


有了这种病，难免遭受旁人的排斥，无论是无理或礼貌的拒绝都一样让我伤心。很想做某样伟大的事情，好让大家可以注意到我，可以获得众人的敬重与接纳。可惜我的智商并非十分优秀，确实无法做出什么惊世之作。后来领悟，其实自己能好好生活，可以表现得如一般人一样已实属难得。是的，一般人认为普普通通的事，我们可以做得到真的很好了。


一定要好好工作，不管情绪怎么样，工作时间都要咬紧牙根撑过去。能有一份工作算是非常幸运，不会去在乎薪金和人事问题，也不会跟随同事们拼命换工作。最重要的，是上司能体谅我的状况，无法像同事们那样长时间工作。感恩公司肯继续雇用像我这样的员工。