2018-06-08

It's crucial to have the right medication and family support, so that bipolar disorder patients can have a normal life again. When such an illness strikes you, all your friends will stay away. Most probably, they do not know how to help you.

I have such an illness for so many years. As time goes by, my friends become lesser and lesser. Actually I really want to hang out with them, having good times with friends already became my memories. Once I have such an illness, I felt like being pulled into another world. No matter how well I try to describe such a world to my friends, they can never understand. The main problem is, I cannot return to the ordinary world anymore. Eventually, all of my old friends stay away from me, perhaps they say I am the one who stays away from them.

Even I can stand up again, having a permanent job, and exercise regularly, my perspective can never be the same as the rest of other people. That's the reason why I hardly click with any people. I'm blessed that my parents and siblings are with me no matter what. Bipolar disorder patient is a weirdo in the eyes of the world. How can we stay in harmony with other people? I think, we need respect and acceptance from the world. We never choose to be bipolar disorder patients. We can never prevent our weird actions and thoughts by will.

Everyone, no matter who, once they have been born into this world, they have the right to live. Yes, we have the right to live.   

2018-06-08

要好好维持一个部落格，老实说，真的不容易。曾经有个伟大的抱负，希望可以凭着自己的经历，去鼓励其他跟我一样得到躁郁症的朋友。在这世界上的躁郁症病患者的人数不少，但是可以跟一般人正常生活的人数却少之又少。

根据个人的经验，躁郁症病患者可以重新回到正常人的生活，总结来说有两个很重要的因素。第一、适合自己的药物。第二、家人不离不弃的支持。很幸运的，我刚好拥有这两大因素。去年九月再次入院，主要原因是当时服用不适合自己的药物。精神科医生帮我换了药后，那种药很适合自己，好让自己能迅速回到工作岗位。之前的药物会导致自己越来越肥胖，似乎怎么运动都没有用。最辛苦的是，情绪长期陷入低潮，做什么事都没有信心。心情一直处于沮丧的状态，生活会逐渐失去意义。为了避免自己会精神崩溃，我自愿在精神病院待一段时间。希望那一次，是最后一次待在精神病院。

有了这样的病后，身旁近乎没有朋友。我相信，主要的原因，是没有人知道要怎么样去帮助精神病患者。不要说正常人，即使自己本身有这样的病，同样不懂得怎么样去照顾和关怀其他的躁郁症病患者。躁郁症病患者很多样化，适合在我身上的东西，并不一定适合其他的病患者。举个例子，适合我的药物，不一定适合在其他的病患身上。医生不鼓励精神病患者常常跟其他的精神病患者接触，我猜想，是因为不要状况稳定了的精神病患者，因受到刺激而变成不稳定吧。感到欣慰的，是父母亲一直不离不弃地待在我身边。他们当然不懂得怎么做，可是有他们的陪伴，路多么难走都愿意走下去。

渴望有一天，我这成功的案例可以鼓励许许多多的躁郁症病患者。无论如何，一定要好好地生活下去。但愿我的状态能安安稳稳，然后可以扶持其他的病患者，成为他们的朋友。若不是父母的陪伴，还有家人精神上的支持，我真的会感到很孤单。除了家人，很希望有很多很多的朋友。