2020-04-30


During the movement control order in my country, it was quite hard to adapt such a new situation. The main thing should be no more freedom to go to wherever I want to. Of course I never want to go against the new laws and being caught eventually.


Two weeks, and another two weeks, and another two weeks... It can go on and on. Actually the great fear during this moment should be jobless. Many people already got sacked or will be fired. It's really scary for me. It's truly difficult to get a job during this critical moment, and it'll be more terrible for mental illness people.


Asking myself to be calm and relax. Things will be better. This pandemic will surely fade away. And the economy will be much better. Then, everyone can have a good life. All right, thinking in such a way seems too idealistic. Anyway, it's undoubtedly much better than thinking about all the worst scenarios.


The good news is, quite recently, I'm taking one medication only instead of two. No more anti-depressant but mood stabiliser. Used to take Epilim as my mood stabiliser but it made me feeling depressed for such a long time. Taking lithium now and so far it's working fine. For your information, I do need to take blood test every year to make sure that the medication doesn't cause harm to my kidneys.


Hope for all the best in the future and get prepared for all the worst. For the next post, pray that I may write it after movement control order ends.

2020-04-28


在这段时期，由于居住的地方实施了行动管制令，所以几乎什么地方都不能去，感觉上好像突然住在了火星上那小小的玻璃穹顶里。本来是一般的上班族，顿时间变成了在家里工作的百分百宅男。


很想到处走走，也很想参杂在人群里，更想与人相互拥抱！现在政府教育民众必需适应新常态，因为这疫情会持续好一段日子。什么时候会结束呢？疫苗什么时候才会面世呢？当人人都可以恢复自由的状态，相信大家最担心的，就是大裁员的海啸。这段时间，很多很多企业都撑得很痛苦。


回到我这部落格的主题吧，有关精神疾病的课题。从新加坡的连续剧里认识了暴怒症。后来上网查询何为“暴怒症”？其实一看这名字就已一目了然，即是“暴怒”。原来暴怒症并非自成一格的精神疾病，而大家熟悉的忧郁症、躁郁症和精神分裂症都有所谓暴怒的倾向。


身为躁郁症的我，确实必得承认自己有暴怒的倾向。幸好所服用的精神药物，可以好好控制了暴怒的倾向，让自己纵然会生气也不至于过了头。是的，暴怒相等于暴力倾向，有可能伤害别人。可是根据专家们的说法，对于精神疾病人士，我们往往会伤害自己多于伤害他人。说白了，自杀就是对自己最严重的暴力行为。


在这时期生活，精神病患者所承受种种不舒服的感觉，比一般人更加猛烈。好好的休息，好好的工作，好好的运动。深深相信目前的状况只是暂时的，一霎眼就过了。