2019-09-24


When I as a bipolar disorder people look at other bipolar disorder people's blogs, the main message would be, all the bipolar disorder people may have a happy and productive life as others. Does it really true?


Compared with bipolar disorder people, people without this mental illness are generally easier in looking for a life partner. In fact, I myself have been rejected again and again due to having this mental illness. It should be common by having friends all getting married but I haven't found my life partner yet. I have to look at those happy couples photos in my Facebook and Instagram, and they get married, and their cute little babies, and their little kids go to school and etc.


No one can judge they are doing the wrong things because they are sharing their happiness with their friends unselfishly. In another term, they are radiating positive energy via social media generously. In contrast, I don't have a life partner and no children. Most probably, I have to be single till the day I die. If being single is a shame, no life partner is a curse and no children is a disaster, then how can I be happy? No doubt, by having all these things are great blessings. However, all these things are not essential for living.


Yes, all these things seem unfair to bipolar disorder people. No doubt about it. People like to complain about their life partners and their children. In contrast, I have nothing to complain about these at all. My existence brings a clear message to those who love to complain, so that they may be cherish with what they have especially their life partners and children. At least they have something to complain about and this is a blessing.


So what do I want to bring out today? Romantic relationship is a blessing but it's not for everyone. Cherish if you have it but if you lack of it like me, then we have to carry on boldly. It's not a must and without it we can still survive.

2019-09-23


对不起，那么迟才写这篇信息。之前都一直在处理着内心种种的繁杂思绪，好像怎么尽力都在原地打转，但是那份坚持还是值得鼓舞。


是的，坚持很重要，那种单纯的坚持，那种不变的赤子之心。一切看来都稳定了，而接下来就是往前移动。错过了很多时间，也错过了不少人和事物。人群来来往往的，一会儿在身边，一霎时又不知道去了何处。很想抓牢，抓住每一份美好的时光，幼稚地以为一切始终如一。结果是，没有任何人和事物可以抓牢，匆匆地消失在时间的洪流里。闭上眼，给予深深的祝福，祈求他们都过得很好。


除了坚持，放手也同样重要，好让内心不会太拥挤。尽了力，仍然失败的，要学会释怀。这么做不是放弃，而是懂得释怀自己。所有的挫败，不美好的回忆，破裂的人际关系，这一切一切都要学会放手。没有人是完美的，更何况拥有永久精神问题的我，必需学会原谅他人。


坚持和放手，这两个理念犹如火和水。该坚持的时候坚持；该放手的时候放手。怎么拿捏？怎么抉择？对于这方面，确实需要很大的智慧。简单来说，先坚持做好一切，但当事物已不在自己能力范围之内的时候，我们就要学会把它放下。这些想法是我最近的领悟。