2022-06-30

生活难免会遇见许多困难，一大堆解决不完的问题，仿佛怎么尽力都做不好的事。很沮丧，很无奈，也很无助。

想要有人帮助，但似乎没有人可以帮忙。在人生的道路上，总需要由自己去面对。无论怎么不愿意，还是要自己独自去面对。可是，真的没有法子，该怎么办？

我常常都陷入困境里，很多很多绞尽脑汁都无法胜任的事物。不断告诉自己，尽力就好，尽了力就好。若最终失败了，告诉自己，“你已经尽力了。”

重要的是，生活没有遗憾。既然尽了全力，纵然满盘皆输，却没有白活。

2022-06-28

It's time to write a blog for this. It's really tiring to work and study at the same time. Of course, I prefer study than work, but I need to work for surviving. Thus, working full-time and studying part-time is my only choice. 

Hardworking can always make things better. However, it can never bring me towards perfect. I may exercise regularly, eat healthily, study the best I could, but all these will never make me a perfect guy. Used to be a perfectionist till I'd diagnosed of having such a mental illness. Tried to deny such a fact, and assumed I was totally fine without medication. After that, I experienced more damages. 

Hence, it's a definite no for being a perfectionist. But hey, life is much better without striving for perfection! How come? Perfection is a high standard, and no one knows how high it can go. We could never reach it because no matter how good we have done, we would think that we could do it slightly better. That's too pathetic. 

Without perfection, I just stop doing something when feeling that I want to take a break. While reading, simply lie down and rest when the head is going numb. Keep reminding myself that I can never understand every single thing. In fact, try to understand as much as possible. Whatever the results, accept it without self cricticising.  

Yes, we have done our best, and it's really more than enough. Even if we never really try our best, as long as we have tried, all the little efforts are still precious.