2021-06-22

I cannot deny that it's pretty naïve for us to think everything is okay as long as we are faithfully in taking the medication. Of course, it's the most important part but surely not the full picture. After taking medication, I still experience mood fluctuation problem from time to time. I really don't know how to explain it to the others who never experience such a problem. 

Please do take note that the problem is not as severe as not taking the medication. Generally, it's still quite hard to bear. Should I share it openly to the people who are close to me? Should I keep low profile and never mention a word? So far, I try to hide it and continue my daily routine as usual. Why do I prefer to hide it? In fact, no one could really help. By telling someone that I'm feeling uncomfortable never ease the pains. Most probably, the person who knows it will feel worry and sad, and I have to spend more time to convince the person that I'm okay. 

Never lose hope, perhaps. I have no idea what would be happened in the future. Always hope for a good future, and also hope there will be cures for all the mental illnesses. The main message I want to bring out today is, never ever quit. For instance, there are a number of death cases for vaccination but we have to receive vaccination whatsoever. The fact is, it's better to be vaccinated. Similarly, surely it's better to keep on going rather than to quit. 

The actual picture for me at the moment is, I'm surrounded in gloomy darkness and hope for the dawn. No idea when would it arrive and just keep on waiting.