2021-08-23

How people react when you tell him or her that you have bipolar disorder? In fact, most of the people don't know how to react. From my own experience, they prefer to keep silence or assume I've never told them a word. 

What is the motive behind that I wanted to tell someone that I have such a mental illness? As what I could observe, the majority should act in a certain range for a situation. However, for the same situation, I have acted out of the scope. For example, during this pandemic, I cannot attend choir in a church. All the choir members have to record their singings accordingly. It's really tough to do so. I had tried my best but the video clip has been rejected. This is only the first try. For the majority, they would try to record for the second time. My mood suddenly dropped a few days ago and I have to suffer a long lasting painful feeling inside. In such a circumstance, I felt fed up and wanted to quit straight away. My choir leader patiently advised me not to do so. And then, I felt sorry and told him directly that I have bipolar disorder and being in depression state now, and also I have to suffer the long lasting painful feeling at the moment.

Guess what the feedback from the choir leader? No feedback. What they should response? Another question is, what response we really want? From their point of view, it'll be safe to keep silence. If they say something inappropriate, maybe we would be much worse. All right, this seems correct whatsoever. Anyway, do we expect a silence from the people whenever we tell them about our mental problems? The answer is obviously NO. The main message today is not teaching people how to react. I just want to share with all the mental illness people that it's okay that you tell someone about your mental problems but please do not expect much from the people. Let them know our limitation so that we do not have to bear unnecessary burdens. The painful feeling that we need to suffer is hard to be understood by those who do not have such a problem.